I really like this song now. It's like woman doesn't care about a guy who just walk out of her life. She is sooo strong and she can replace this guy (who thought that he was irreplaceable) with the other one immediatly. Well, Beyonce you rock!

 

 

Irreplaceable by Beyonce

 

to left to left
to left to left

mmmmmmmmmmmm
to left to left
everything you own in the box to the left
in the closet, thats my stuff
yes, if I bought it, then please don't touch (don't touch)

and keep on talking that mess, thats fine
but could you walk and talk, at the same time?
and- its my name thats on that jag
so go move your bags, let me call you a cab

standing in the front yard, telling me
how I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
how I'll never ever find a man like you

you got me to say!!!!!!!

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
infact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
so don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
you're irreplaceable

so go ahead and get drunk
call up that chick, and see if shes home
oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know
what did you think
I was putting you out for?
because you was untrue
rolling her around in the car that I bought you
baby, drop them keys
hurry up, before your taxi leaves

standing in the front yard, telling me
how I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
how I'll never ever find a man like you

you got me twisted!!!!!!!!

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
infact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
so don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
you're irreplaceable

so since I'm not your everything
how about I be nothing? nothing at all to you
baby i won't shed a tear for you
I won't lose a wink of sleep
cause the truth of the matter is
replacing you is so easy

to left to left
to left to left

mmmmmmmm
to left to left
everything you own in the box to left

to the left to the left
don't you ever for a second get to thinking
you're irreplaceable

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
infact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
so don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
infact, he'll be here in a minute

you can pack all your bags- we're finished
cause you made your bed now lay in it
I can have another you by tomorrow
don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
you're irreplaceable

***************************************

At church today we have 'Candle Night Service'. In Christmas,there is no any other places worth going as church.

If I was in England by now, probably we will go and play game, eat a full Christmas dinner course which are Yorkshire Pudding, Turkey, Christmas Cake with custard. hmmm yummmmm

 

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve....Christmas....New Year Eve and New Year 2007

I should write it down soon about what is good and bad of the year 2006 and the New Year resolution.

Okie it will be in my 'coming soon' session eieiei

 

Right now I will go to bed (or chat on msn? hm hm hm) and dream about my dream destination with some other man 5555 Maldives, Egypt, India, Brazil, Italy, Iceland, America. Oh God, I hope he don't forget to send another part of me to born in this world. Last but not least, if you wanna suggest any activity for the single cutie girl please be my guest :-) 

In here, everybody have to wear jacket because the temperatuere today is around 20 C.

 

After I take a shower, I really miss my heater that I used in the University in Essex.

 

But in Thailand, I don't think that there is any household have any heater at all.

There is no one right or wrong forever when it comes to the relationship.

Please don't ask 'what is happened', some couple (maybe) knew but they don't wanna talk about it.

That's all.

 

Finally, I also think that it's good to end up like this, indeed... Before it's too deep and I cant get out of it.  

 

My close friend said, I'm a lot better day by day but the thing is I cant stop worrying 'bout him.

They encourage me to be a mean person and think of him in a bad way....which I couldn't.

Always send a best wishes to him as usual.

 

Okie, I hope next journal won't be about this brake up story anymore....

maybe I'm ready to move on. hahaaaaaa let's move on, shall we?

I'm sorry that I worry about you that much.

I'm sorry that I'm too strict with your life till you fed up.

I'm sorry that I have an ideal type of person in mind and try to compare with you.

I'm sorry that we end up like this.

It's ok. I forgive you and please forgive me as well.

 

I'll leave you alone as you wish but one day (maybe 3, 5,10 years) if you need me, I'll be there as well.

 

Always yur friend with no expired date.

 

:-)    <------ last smile for you, if you back here to read my space. God Bless You na ka. 

 

Some people ask why do I dare to post my personal life in here.....

Well because this is my space and I don't mind you knowing me through my writing stuff but to talk about my life or some other's life are way more complicated than the things we put into wording. We just try to make it clear to our head.

 

 

1) There is always a reason for everything that happen in our life (under our God's will)

2) There will be noone that can be sad forever or happy forever. Once you're sad today, you should prepare for something happier than this hour. Likewise, when you're happy, you should prepare to confront the situation that may lead you to be more sad later.

3) Anyway, I think I'm a bit trendsetter. I think about what I've said. Sometimes people do or take my advices or even duplicate for what I did. For the people who may think that their life is a bit boring, you are very welcome to my world.

4) I don't mind about the gossip through this journal as long as it came from what I wrote. The polite people always do care about me by avoiding the difficult answering question from me. I'll take that as a profit through this journal. The people who care and want to know the truth may ask the exact question that once you may burst to tear after hearing it. Never mind....then they have the right to ask and I have the right to choose to answer or not as well.

5) If there is no reason for love then there is no reason for anything else that happen after 'in love' as well right?

 

See ? I'm in a very discreet moment and my talent now is to forget about everything. I think it works 'cause there is nothing worth to remember at all.

 

What should I do?

 

Everything in my life I pointed to him....but now....when there is no him so.

 

I've got to learn to stand by myself alone again.

 

Well I have to Thanks God to give this opportunity again to find a nicer guy than him, right?

 

The one who won't hurt me anymore.....

 

well yeah I found one guy his name is 'Jesus' 

 

 

:-)

 

 

Tomorrow will be better than today.....I just hope that time will cure me again.

See...there is nothing I can do except thinking about us all day....

 

I found out that we watched the movie in the cinema overall 14 movies....lucky number huh?

 

Harry Potter and the goblet of fire
King Kong
The Chronicles of Narnia
Just like heaven 
Final destination 3
V for Vendetta
The Da Vinci code
Just friend
The fast and the furious : Tokyo drift
Pirates of the Caribbean
The Lake House

Black Dalia
Click
The Devil wears Prada

 

God... I miss you  Y_Y

Well, he have already made his choice....

not to have me in his life anymore.

 

Well, my last wish is to have him as friend, don't u think?

 

Eventhought the relationship has come to an end we can still have eachother as friend, right?

 

I'd rather have him as friend than doesn't have him at all.

 

The good thing of today is I have a chance to talk to his family...they are so good to me. Moreover, my space is now over 5,000 view. Ok guys thank you for stoping by but not add any comment for me hahaaaaaa.

 

Thanks for my friend who always with me all the time of this 'broke up'.

 

Thanks Illusion, Koy, Ju, Wam, Nan, Susan who called me this morning, Yao Jia and my family who always do care for me and always available for me.

 

I'll be strong again the day after after tomorrow.... 'illusion' said after this... 'let love find the way'.

 

I just hope that next time, God may bring the right one.

 

Anyway, thank you for all of my EXs. ;-) 

I'm not missing you

I'm not missing the time that we went to London and saw the Phantom of the Opera and I found you asleep during the play.

I'm not missing the time that we talk until we forgot to jump of the train.

I'm not missing the time that we walk in somewhere away together.

I'm not missing the time that you try to take a picture of me.

I'm not missing the time that you help me in the kitchen.

I'm not missing the time that you walked out of the class because of my voice sound terrible when you heard.

I'm not missing the last Valentine's day that you went to tesco and bought me some white flowers.

I'm not missing the time that we went to tesco, no matter what time is it or the wheather is like.

I'm not missing the time that you choose to watch 'click' with me instead of the movie you like.

I'm not missing the time that you always stand by me no matter what I'm right or wrong.....

 

and I will be a liar if I said that I'm not missing you..... and our time together.

 

 

************************************************ 

well, let's song a song today

courtsey to UTube

 

 
Ooh?
I'm not missin' you?
(Hmmm)?

Stanza 1
Been through just about everything,
That I could go through,
When it comes to relationships.
Don't know what I was missing
Or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it.
But here I go,
Hurt again.
Cause of my curiosity.
Now that it's over,
What else could it be,
Besides a cheat?

Pre-Chorus
I made a promise never to settle,
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hided the heart break, cryin' and cheatin',
The fooling around.
But i'm not missin' you...

Chorus
I'm not going through emotions,
Waiting and a hoping you call me.
I'm not missin' you.
You mighta had me open,
But I must be goin' because,
I got lots to do.
I know i'm usually hanging on,
I used to hate to see you go.
But this time is different;
I don't even feel the distance.
I'm not missin'; i'm not missin' you...

Stanza 2
It's a shame in way,
Cause I feel that I may not
Ever find the right one for me.
Did I leave him this year,
Right n front of my face (oh).
Will my love ever be?
Why would I go,
on a search again?
When I know what the
end will be.
What good is love
When it keeps on hurting me?

Pre-Chorus
I made a promise never to settle,
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hided the heart break, cryin' and cheatin',
The fooling around.
But i'm not missin' you...

Chorus
I'm not going through emotions,
Waiting and a hoping you call me.
I'm not missin' you.
You mighta had me open,
But I must be goin' because,
I got lots to do.
I know i'm usually hanging on,
I used to hate to see you go.
But this time is different;
I don't even feel the distance.
I'm not missin'; i'm not missin' you...
(repeat 2x)

Bridge
No, I can't be with you
Cause i'm sacred.
Felt like I was falling when you left me.
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what i'm missing
Or the person that I could be.
Love's good when it's right.
Bad, when it's left in you memory.
All the times, and anytime.
I guess love would be nice for someone, as this life...
I'm not missin' you...

Chorus
I'm not going through emotions,
Waiting and a hoping you call me.
I'm not missin' you.
You mighta had me open,
But I must be goin' because,
I got lots to do.
I know i'm usually hanging on,
I used to hate to see you go
(i used to hate it).
Different...
(don't feel the) distance.
I'm not missin'; i'm not missin' you...

Chorus
I'm not going through emotions,
Waiting and a hoping you call me.
(knocking at my door)
You mighta had me open,
But I must be goin' because,
(this is the best day of my life)
I know i'm usually hanging on,
I used to hate to see you go.
Different...
(don't feel the) distance.
I'm not missin'; i'm not missin' you......

(Ohhh)
I'm not missin' you...
No baby...
I'm not missin' you...

********************************* 

 

I really want...him

But if in the end of the road it couldn't be him.....I think I'm going to be alright.

 

and I'm sure we can be friend at last. (of course not in the beginning)

 

 

รักที่เพิ่งผ่านพ้นไป / Groove Riders

 

เคยนั่งตรงนี้ เก้าอี้ตัวนี้ อยู่ข้างๆเธอ
เป็นที่ประจำ ที่เธอและฉัน จะนัดกันเสมอ
แต่วันนี้ ที่เดิมตรงนี้ ที่ฉันได้เจอ
ทุกอย่างคงเดิม บรรยากาศเดิมๆ แต่ไม่มีเธอ

ดนตรี นั้นเล่นอยู่ ฟัง ฉันฟังอยู่
แต่ว่าในใจนั้น เงียบงัน

มีแต่เสียงเพลง ที่ว่างเปล่า
จบลงแล้ว ความรักของเรา
ไม่มีเขาเคียงข้างอีกแล้ว ไม่มีคืนวันที่สดใส
ดื่มให้ตัวเองอีกที กับรักที่เพิ่ง ผ่านพ้นไป
ฉากวันนั้น ยังจดยังจำ แจ่มชัดในใจ
ภาพวันนั้นที่เธอบอกลาฉัน ยังไม่เคยเลือนหายไป
คำพูดวันนั้นที่บอกกับฉัน ว่าเธอต้องไป
เธอจับมือฉัน และบอกให้ฉัน ยกโทษให้ได้ไหม

lyric courtsey to siamzone.com

 

listen to the song here...

 

this song is about....drinking to celebrate the past love.....

 

oops of course not celebrate with happiness for sure.....

 

It's just a song...... tomorrow my song won't be a sad song like this for sure.... (I hope)

Dear, God

 

I don't know how to thank you you. You are the best and I'm glad I'm one of your children.

 

Today I went to the King's Palace to say 'Long live the King' for our King's Birthday on this 5 December 2006.

 

Our King's face is very very kind and full with love and joy.

 

On his birthday, May God Bless him and his health as well. Love Live The King.  :-) 

Today I try to fix my w800i Sony Ericson and I found the clip.

 

I record the video of him. I was asking him 'do you love me?'

 

His answer is as usual....'If I'm not in love with you, why I am here'

 

I'm always doubt in our relationship...

 

I found one Thai song which is very nice moreover this song show how I feel right now.

 

'Never' by Synkornize

 

ไม่เคย

 

อาจจะเจอหน้าเธอ อาจจะได้คุยกัน

แต่ละวันผ่านไปก็เหมือนเธอมีใจ

แต่ไม่รู้ทำไม ว่าลึกๆในใจ

มันปวดร้าวและรู้สึกได้กับความเฉยชา

 

ที่เธอมีให้กัน ให้กับฉันมานาน

สิ่งที่เหมือนจะหวานแต่กลายเป็นภาพลวง

เธอไม่คิดจริงจัง เหมือนที่ฉันจริงใจ

ยิ่งนานเท่าไหร่ในใจมันยิ่งรับรู้ความจริง

 

ว่าฉันไม่เคยได้อยู่ในชีวิตของเธอ

เป็นอยู่เสมอก็แค่คนที่ไม่เคยมีตัวตน

ในความฝันของเธอ แค่ผ่านมาและผ่านไป

ก็ได้แต่ช้ำเมื่อรู้ว่าสิ่งที่ฉันหวังมานาน

เป็นเพียงแค่จินตนาการของคนโง่งมงาย

เจ็บแทบตาย แต่ทั้งใจก็ยังรักเธอ

 

ฉันไม่เคยได้อยู่ในชีวิตของเธอ

เป็นอยู่เสมอแค่คนที่ไม่เคยมีตัวตน

ในความฝันของเธอ แค่ผ่านมาและผ่านไป

ก็ได้แต่ช้ำเมื่อรู้ว่าสิ่งที่ฉันหวังมานาน

เป็นเพียงแค่จินตนาการของคนโง่งมงาย

เจ็บแทบตายแต่ทั้งใจก็ยังรักเธอ

 

This song is about the relationship that one day has come to its end.

One person still in love not like the other.

And he/she just found out that their past relationship is an illusion....like a dream ...untouchable and always comes and goes.

 

I just hope, one day he will be back.

 

You cannot blame...who's right or wrong in one's relationship.

 

and enough is just really enough....